When there’s a lot I want to say in a blog post, I get overwhelmed. The more information I want to put down, the more intimidated I get to write it down. I’ve been sitting on these photos for a few weeks and I feel like a part of the delay in posting them was me putting off writing about them. I often ‘fantasize’ about getting rid of the writing in my blog, and only posting photos and links. I tell myself that this will ease my procrastinating about the blog, and in turn I will be more willing to post and increase my output. Every time I have this particular fantasy, I think about a yoga quote, “the places where you have the most resistance are actually the places that are going to be the areas of the greatest liberation.” I won’t deny it’s immediately perceived hokey-ness…but I also can’t deny it’s truth. It’s here in the writing where I struggle the most, but it’s also where I find such satisfying achievements. Sure, the blog is a great motivator for improving my photography and to push my fashion creativity, but these things do no scare me as much as putting myself and thoughts out there in writing. And if I didn’t feel the need to get personal beyond the images, then that would be fine too and I wouldn’t…but when I look at these pictures, I have so much I want to say about them. A small, nagging, doubting voice in my head whispers, “people don’t come here to listen to you wax poetic about something as silly as fashion” but it’s more than that and that’s what I really want to share.
First, the new hair! What do you think? I LOVE IT! So, happy I pulled the trigger at the hair dressers. I was super nervous, my heart was pounding while I sat in the chair with all the bleach on my hair. I couldn’t be happier though. I really wanted it done before my birthday. It was kind of a celebration of the more confident person that I am becoming, and I really wanted it to show on such a milestone occasion. Birthdays are such great times to reflect on your past and get excited about the future. I have never felt as good as I do at this time in my life. I contribute it to a combination of better physical and mental health, largely aided by a daily yoga practice (or so I think). It’s fun to look back (in life and on the blog) and see how far I’ve come, but what’s more exciting is to look to the future and to anticipate where this upward trend will take me. I hope it will see me mastering more of my yoga and photography. Which leads me to the second thing I wish to share, I got a new camera lens for my birthday. It was a gift from family members, and I couldn’t be more thankful. Not only for such a generous gift, but more importantly for the show of love and encouragement towards my passion for photography. It’s such a great feeling when loved ones encourage your passion and growth. I loved how the photos turned out with the new lens and I can't wait to shoot more blogs and pictures with it.
Well this blog has been a little long winded, so if you made it this far… thank you! And now for the super cute birthday outfit I rocked! PS. the cashier at Sephora said I looked, “hipster…but you know…in a good way.” I laughed because I had the exact same thought when I looked at myself in the mirror that morning. All joking aside, I am in love with this hat - hipster or not. I saw it at Dynamite and I allllllmost walked out without it. Thankfully, I had a moment where I told myself I would probably regret it if I didn’t get it. Oh man, I was so right.
